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A Fresh Start…

 

After a few weeks of sunshine, unseasonably high temperatures, and slightly alarming weather reports that describe this spring as one of the driest on record, I am relieved to hear the rain outside tapping against my window and dripping off the roof in heavy plop plops onto the deck below.  As I pull my boots and heavy jackets back out of the closet and out of an early retirement, I begin to understand the seasonal “blues” that plague many of my co-workers and friends in this region at this time of year.  Luckily, my love affair with the wet stuff is still going strong and though my nose is cold tonight (I’m too stubborn to turn on the heater) the ambiance is definitely worth the slight discomfort.

A little over two years ago, I left San Diego, my home of 20+ years, for the near-unknown.  I was heading to the Pacific Northwest… a place where I had extended family and fond memories of family vacations.  Beyond that, I had no idea what I was getting myself into or where I would settle down.  I remember driving north on the I-5, more than a little overwhelmed at how wide open my future was… vast and directionless.  In the time since, I have made mistakes.  I spent months spinning my wheels.  I overestimated and underwhelmed.  I learned a lot about seasons, growing things, and raising chickens.  I learned a lot about myself.  I started over.  I set new goals.  I met someone and slowly, slowly, began building a life up here with him.  In looking back over the last couple of years its been really hard to let go of the past and start looking forward, but I now realize that everything that has happened has done so to get me to this place.  A place where I am happy and content and sure of where I am supposed to be.

After spending the last year making a home together, we now find ourselves packing boxes and making plans to move.  (Luckily, this time it’s only a few miles away instead of thousands.)  While we’ve loved our cozy house and will treasure the “firsts” we had there, we are excited about this new place that whispers promises of evenings with friends and family, starry nights and plenty of room for all manner of growing things.  I have a feeling that it’s also the kind of place of the long-term variety… a place for settling in and making it our own.

At 16, if you had asked me what I wanted out of life, I might have listed off a few adventures, but it would’ve come down to this, everything that speaks of where I am right now.  I had no clue it would take me this long, but it’s definitely been worth the wait.

Birthdays & New Beginnings…

Wow, wow, wow-ee, wow… it has been awhile.  A good, long while.

I have no apology, only a small explanation as to my absence.  I was done burnt out, people.

Seriously, I needed a break.  From photography.  From computers.  From boredom.  From stress.  From life.  I needed to unplug for a bit.  So that’s what I did.  I put the photo business on hiatus and got a regular 9-5 job again.  I go to work Monday through Friday and every two weeks, I bring home that steady paycheck from The Man.  You know what?  It feels good.  It’s nice knowing that I’m going to be able to eat that week and grab a beer from time to time and maybe afford to pick up something at the farmer’s market.  It’s nice to focus on my own life and nurture my own relationships for a change instead of always thinking in terms of “clients” and hustling for that next job.  Things were bleak for awhile after the move and I had to just step back and take a deep breath and….. exhale.

You know what?  It turns out that was exactly what I needed.  These days, I’m excited to pick up a camera again.  I’m slowly getting back into the photography world by freelancing for a local studio, second shooting for friends (old & new), and booking a very, very small number of weddings of my own.  After traveling to Yellowstone last month, I’m restless for the next trip, so I can photograph new faces and places to my heart’s content.  I’m meeting some amazing people and I’m at a place again where I feel I can empathize and connect with them.  I feel refreshed, rejuvenated, and re-inspired.  Gosh darn it… I think I’m happy.

As I ease back into the blogging world, I figured I would share a few photos from my low-key, but absolutely-perfect-in-every-way birthday.  An awesome spaghetti dinner, a beautiful homemade cake, and someone special to fuss over me for a day… and let it spill over into the weekend.  Here’s to another year and a new beginning!  xoxoxo

A Shift in Priorities…

This space has been so quiet lately…. not because I don’t want to share, but because things have changed so, so much, I’m not even sure where to begin.  I moved to Portland a year ago… this weekend was my 1 year anniversary.  It’s been incredibly hard to leave San Diego behind and I miss my family and friends terribly.  Besides being lonely, I’ve also been broke, bored, restless, sad, conflicted, introspective, giddy, content, happy, independent, and adventurous.  The spectrum of experiences in the past year has been vast and it’s made me a stronger, better person for having gone through it.  It’s also shifted my priorities to a degree I never could have imagined, even just one short year ago.  While I may or may not elaborate on all of those experiences in this space, I do want to make my stories and photos here more personal… less about work and marketability and more about life and living it.

And in that light, here is a small snippet from this afternoon.  A bit of peace found in a small Sunday moment.  xoxoxo

Cold Weather’s A-Comin…

My neighbors were laughing at me while I was out taking these photos, trying to savor this color with my camera.  This is my first autumn in the northwest and the chickens and I are loving it.  xoxo

All Hallow’s Eve..

Halloween has been a low-key affair this year.  I don’t have a costume but I did go out and ogle everybody’s’ creativity this past weekend.  Hope yours is a happy (and safe!) one. :)